I didn't have a chance to tell you earlier, but if it's any comfort, Ginny was right about the Puceys. Dauphine and the two little ones, her nieces, came with us. They're at Moddey now. And we're hoping that the others--the ones taken to hospital and the ones who ran from the attack--will find their way here. We'd done our job persuading them before we were overrun, and if they'd needed any further convincing, that surely will have accomplished it.
And we sent a team to Letitia Calderwood. She was to be next on our list. Ginny had met her while she was modelling. There was a feature run on the two of them, past and present Purest Sparkle girls, and they'd made a connection? I'm not certain. In any case, the team today managed to persuade her that she was likely to be MLE's next target--which she surely would have been, as she was so freshly in Ginny's thoughts--and she agreed to shelter with us. I believe they took her to one of the safe houses we're using for people who need careful evaluation and orientation before we can decide how far to trust them and where they'd be best suited. So our work today bore fruit, though it was costly indeed.
It wasn't for nothing, then. I'll try to hang on to that.
I tried to convince Alice of this, but please, will you tell her I said it to you, too? I don't blame her. She knows what this is like, and I won't turn against her, I won't let Bellatrix win that way.
I was going to ask for a calming draught, but I think not. If I stay up all night crying, I don't give a damn.
I will speak with Alice, of course. I'm sure she knows she can count on you always, though, just as you know that she will keep faith with you through whatever may come. We have one another, and that is something Bellatrix Lestrange cannot fathom and can never take from us.
I respect your decision about the calming draught. It's my firm belief that weeping properly is therapeutic. Should you change your mind at any point, do send an elf for me. At whatever time.
If Bellatrix keeps her alive, which she may do for a while, we may have a chance to rescue her later. It depends on what they do with her, where they decide to keep her, other things.
They may want her as a hostage, to try to influence our decisions or movements. They may want to force her to speak against the Order publicly, for propaganda purposes. They may want to turn her against us, again, probably for propaganda purposes. Or possibly Bellatrix is going to try again to use her as a lever on the Order.
I read this, and I actually considered for a moment....
I wondered whether it would give Ginny more time, a better chance of survival, if I gave Bellatrix what she wants. All the signs of agony, of desperation, helpless rants, that kind of thing?
But then I realised no, I can't do that. It would only help to destroy everything we've been working for with the Order, to demonstrate to everyone that Bellatrix is right, that everyone has to fold in the face of the pain she can dish out. And that she'll always win because her capacity for causing pain is limitless.
Which means that the best chance I have of cutting Ginny's pain short would be convincing Bellatrix I refuse to dance to her piping. I won't do everything I can to save my own daughter.
And Bellatrix will undoubtedly inform her of that, right before she kills her.
Oh, Rachel, I can't bear this.
Where is Ron? You haven't...you won't send him after Ginny?
Ron is in the field right now, helping Justin with something.
I would send him after Ginny if I thought he'd have a chance of success. Right now it would be a suicide mission. He's admitted as much.
About Bellatrix -- you'll drive yourself mad thinking in those circles. You don't have to say a word where she can see it for her to know what she's doing to you. I don't think she seriously expected to schism the Order, any more than we seriously expected her to take Maebh in trade.
I'm glad you haven't sent him on, yes, a suicide mission. I do think the field is the best thing for him right now; all us Weasleys feel best when we're being useful.
About Bellatrix--you're right. And Alice is right, too: the best thing of all is not to engage.
If Ginny is kept alive and allowed to use her journal...well, we'll deal with that if and when it happens.
She won't be able to read the Lock, but she'll have private messages. But you should assume that she'll be forced to read any messages she receives to Bellatrix.
Rachel, I'm...I'm very grateful. To have you in your present position, I mean. At least you know Bellatrix, and the way our enemy thinks and operates, and in the midst of this awfulness, I truly believe we can trust that you have the best chance of gauging what is the right thing to do.
If there isn't any right way, you'll have the best chance of any of us of seeing that, too.
I'm sorry, I'm afraid I'm dreadfully emotional, today, and perhaps I'm not making much sense. But I wanted you to know that.
Will you stop by soon? It's clear Bill wants to see you, but he doesn't want to interrupt you.
I can't bear it, Arthur. I want to scream my lungs out. I want to cast Avada Kedavra on Bellatrix Lestrange.
I wanted to rake my nails down Alice's face when she
when she
oh, but I know that's exactly what that bitch wanted. I won't give her the satisfaction. Alice knows what it's like to have her child in their hands, and I see perfectly well that she was dying inside when she was talking to us. She is not the enemy.
I did everything I could to keep them all safe, Arthur, but I couldn't do it. I couldn't save Percy, and I couldn't save her, and I can't save her, and I'm burning up with shame, and terror, and ... and rage!
I feel so helpless, and that's exactly how Bellatrix Lestrange wants me to feel, but how can I help it? How can I thwart her now? Tell me, how!?
Oh Merlin.
I can't be with her. It's mad, but I'm silently pleading with every power I know to keep Ron from going after her. Because he'll only be lost, too.
All I have is you. Please stay with her. Please be near her. Oh, if only love could bring back the dead, so you could shield her, protect her.
But you can't. You're beyond my thoughts and my pleas, and no tears of mine will help Ginny or make it possible for you to save her.
The only crumb of comfort left to me is the hope that since you're lost to me, you'll be there to meet her when Bellatrix kills her, too.
I must be absolutely mad to write this, but I can't even care. Any mother in this position would be crazed with grief, I imagine.
You're her uncles. I've called upon her father's spirit to protect her. As long as I'm writing hopeless message to the dead, I might as well call upon you, too.
I'm so sorry I couldn't save you. The same monsters who killed you are threatening my Ginny now.
If the dead have any power, any agency at all, please use all of yours that you can to guard my little girl.
You'll never see this. Even if you're alive, and even if you're allowed to see your journal, I can't write anything that Bellatrix can then pry out of your mind to use to hurt you, and to hurt us in return. So I'm writing it here, even though
oh bugger I told Alice to tell Rachel to take your life if you couldn't be rescued. But we couldn't even do that.
My darling Ginevra, I'm so sorry that we failed you. I would do anything to take your place, to take the curses for you, but I can't. We'll keep trying to think of a way to get you out of there. If they give us time, perhaps it will be possible. Anyway, I know Alice won't and Rachel Ginny, if we could
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Private message to Poppy
Date: 2015-07-09 01:22 am (UTC)Re: Private message to Poppy
Date: 2015-07-09 02:11 am (UTC)I didn't have a chance to tell you earlier, but if it's any comfort, Ginny was right about the Puceys. Dauphine and the two little ones, her nieces, came with us. They're at Moddey now. And we're hoping that the others--the ones taken to hospital and the ones who ran from the attack--will find their way here. We'd done our job persuading them before we were overrun, and if they'd needed any further convincing, that surely will have accomplished it.
And we sent a team to Letitia Calderwood. She was to be next on our list. Ginny had met her while she was modelling. There was a feature run on the two of them, past and present Purest Sparkle girls, and they'd made a connection? I'm not certain. In any case, the team today managed to persuade her that she was likely to be MLE's next target--which she surely would have been, as she was so freshly in Ginny's thoughts--and she agreed to shelter with us. I believe they took her to one of the safe houses we're using for people who need careful evaluation and orientation before we can decide how far to trust them and where they'd be best suited. So our work today bore fruit, though it was costly indeed.
I am so very sorry, Molly.
Re: Private message to Poppy
Date: 2015-07-09 02:26 am (UTC)I tried to convince Alice of this, but please, will you tell her I said it to you, too? I don't blame her. She knows what this is like, and I won't turn against her, I won't let Bellatrix win that way.
I was going to ask for a calming draught, but I think not. If I stay up all night crying, I don't give a damn.
Re: Private message to Poppy
Date: 2015-07-09 02:38 am (UTC)I respect your decision about the calming draught. It's my firm belief that weeping properly is therapeutic. Should you change your mind at any point, do send an elf for me. At whatever time.
Private message to Rachel
Date: 2015-07-09 01:26 am (UTC)oh mercy
I understand now, I truly understand why you killed Stephen McGivern.
Re: Private message to Rachel
Date: 2015-07-09 01:55 am (UTC)Re: Private message to Rachel
Date: 2015-07-09 02:10 am (UTC)How, do you think, might they use her? If they keep her alive?
Re: Private message to Rachel
Date: 2015-07-09 03:10 am (UTC)Re: Private message to Rachel
Date: 2015-07-09 03:27 am (UTC)Forewarned is forearmed, I suppose.
Well. I will do my utmost to keep myself and the rest of the family from dancing to Bellatrix's tarantella hex, no matter what happens.
Re: Private message to Rachel
Date: 2015-07-09 01:57 am (UTC)I'm really not sure that's betterRe: Private message to Rachel
Date: 2015-07-09 02:21 am (UTC)I wondered whether it would give Ginny more time, a better chance of survival, if I gave Bellatrix what she wants. All the signs of agony, of desperation, helpless rants, that kind of thing?
But then I realised no, I can't do that. It would only help to destroy everything we've been working for with the Order, to demonstrate to everyone that Bellatrix is right, that everyone has to fold in the face of the pain she can dish out. And that she'll always win because her capacity for causing pain is limitless.
Which means that the best chance I have of cutting Ginny's pain short would be convincing Bellatrix I refuse to dance to her piping. I won't do everything I can to save my own daughter.
And Bellatrix will undoubtedly inform her of that, right before she kills her.
Oh, Rachel, I can't bear this.
Where is Ron? You haven't...you won't send him after Ginny?
Re: Private message to Rachel
Date: 2015-07-09 03:13 am (UTC)I would send him after Ginny if I thought he'd have a chance of success. Right now it would be a suicide mission. He's admitted as much.
About Bellatrix -- you'll drive yourself mad thinking in those circles. You don't have to say a word where she can see it for her to know what she's doing to you. I don't think she seriously expected to schism the Order, any more than we seriously expected her to take Maebh in trade.
Re: Private message to Rachel
Date: 2015-07-09 03:26 am (UTC)About Bellatrix--you're right. And Alice is right, too: the best thing of all is not to engage.
If Ginny is kept alive and allowed to use her journal...well, we'll deal with that if and when it happens.
Re: Private message to Rachel
Date: 2015-07-09 03:29 am (UTC)Re: Private message to Rachel
Date: 2015-07-09 03:43 am (UTC)Rachel, I'm...I'm very grateful. To have you in your present position, I mean. At least you know Bellatrix, and the way our enemy thinks and operates, and in the midst of this awfulness, I truly believe we can trust that you have the best chance of gauging what is the right thing to do.
If there isn't any right way, you'll have the best chance of any of us of seeing that, too.
I'm sorry, I'm afraid I'm dreadfully emotional, today, and perhaps I'm not making much sense. But I wanted you to know that.
Will you stop by soon? It's clear Bill wants to see you, but he doesn't want to interrupt you.
Re: Private message to Rachel
Date: 2015-07-09 03:45 am (UTC)Private message to Remus and Alice
Date: 2015-07-09 01:28 am (UTC)Re: Private message to Remus and Alice
Date: 2015-07-09 03:52 am (UTC)Private message to Molly Weasley
Date: 2015-07-09 01:29 am (UTC)Private message to Arthur Weasley
Date: 2015-07-09 01:45 am (UTC)I wanted to rake my nails down Alice's face when she
when she
oh, but I know that's exactly what that bitch wanted. I won't give her the satisfaction. Alice knows what it's like to have her child in their hands, and I see perfectly well that she was dying inside when she was talking to us. She is not the enemy.
I did everything I could to keep them all safe, Arthur, but I couldn't do it. I couldn't save Percy, and I couldn't save her, and I can't save her, and I'm burning up with shame, and terror, and ... and rage!
I feel so helpless, and that's exactly how Bellatrix Lestrange wants me to feel, but how can I help it? How can I thwart her now? Tell me, how!?
Oh Merlin.
I can't be with her. It's mad, but I'm silently pleading with every power I know to keep Ron from going after her. Because he'll only be lost, too.
All I have is you. Please stay with her. Please be near her. Oh, if only love could bring back the dead, so you could shield her, protect her.
But you can't. You're beyond my thoughts and my pleas, and no tears of mine will help Ginny or make it possible for you to save her.
The only crumb of comfort left to me is the hope that since you're lost to me, you'll be there to meet her when Bellatrix kills her, too.
Private message to Gideon and Fabian Prewett
Date: 2015-07-09 01:51 am (UTC)You're her uncles. I've called upon her father's spirit to protect her. As long as I'm writing hopeless message to the dead, I might as well call upon you, too.
I'm so sorry I couldn't save you. The same monsters who killed you are threatening my Ginny now.
If the dead have any power, any agency at all, please use all of yours that you can to guard my little girl.
Re: Private message to Ginny Weasley
Date: 2015-07-09 02:09 am (UTC)oh bugger I told Alice to tell Rachel to take your life if you couldn't be rescued. But we couldn't even do that.
My darling Ginevra, I'm so sorry that we failed you. I would do anything to take your place, to take the curses for you, but I can't. We'll keep trying to think of a way to get you out of there. If they give us time, perhaps it will be possible.
Anyway, I know Alice won't and Rachel Ginny, if we couldBut if we can't--
If we can't, your father will be waiting for you.
I promise.